fame (fortune still missing)

Polly had every form of media covered last week. She was the lead interview on a Channel 3 TV spot, on WPLR radio, and in the Record-Journal newspaper today. I only wish Linda, the children's book illustrator, could get a fraction of this kind of publicity.


Jayne Bondage and I get interviewed by Diana Rocco of Channel 3 and Chaz from the Chaz & AJ Show.



Jayne and I are confused by unexpected questions. Neither of us are familiar with morning radio banter. And we stink from skating in the hot sun all morning in our smelly gear, as evidenced in Diana Rocco's face.


Us with News Channel 3's Scot Haney, who was as cool as his amazingly cool pants.

This picture makes me realize how much smaller I am then the others. I think of myself as a lot bigger. Maybe I shouldn't have seen this.

relic #3

Blue light.

beach skating

Roller girls skate, wrestle and flyer the West Haven beach at the Buried at the Beach festival.

Our charm gets us on tv and the radio, some excited new fans, and Elvis takes a liking to us.

relic #2

The Inspiration of Saint Matthew, Caravaggio, San Luigi dei Francesi, Rome

relic #1

"And Polo said: 'The inferno of the living is not something that will be; if there is one, it is what is already here.... There are two ways to escape suffering it. The first is easy for many: accept the inferno and become such a part of it that you can no longer see it. The second is risky and demands constant vigilance and apprehension: seek and learn to recognize who and what, in the midst of the inferno, are not inferno, then make them endure.' "

the studio 7-22-06

It's a disaster. Too much paperwork. Too many books. I'm trying to purge. Maybe I'll uncover a few buried relics of past inspiration.

ode

...to L.O.L.A., my car. That stands for Lap Of Luxury Automobile. She's a 98 Oldsmobile Cutlass Sierra. She has power windows, fabric seats, and rides like a dream. She is reliable and comfortable enough for sleeping. I love her. She enables all my adventures, like this trip to Vermont.

This is my mum's house, which was a dumpy little hunting cabin when she bought it. She's added the section on the left, the porches, the garage, and the steeped roof, and the gardens. She's also just clear cut trees all around so the place looks like a grand estate hidden in the shady woods of Vermont. I barely recognized it.


This is my mum, who I know will be mad at me for putting her picture up. But she is amazing. She's surveying her mother's clematis which she has revived.

This is also an ode to my mum. I love her too.

WaterFire

Fire, water and a good friend once again make for a night of mystery and magical occurrences.

An evening passagio at WaterFire in Providence, RI, which felt more like an imaginary Venezia with gondolas, chandeliers beneath bridges, a carnation-bearing commedia dell'arte clown, tango dancers in the street, and music from the canal echoing through the city.

And fire.

Miss Understood

Lots of people are unhappy with me right now. I count a dozen at least, probably more I'm not aware of.

I know it's hard to understand why I'm so set on roller derby which takes up a whole lot of time and seems to be a pointless risk to my health. Though I was led to it by synchronicity, in getting to know the other women I've discovered there are actually logical reasons behind it. And those with preconceptions from the past about what derby is now, cast them away, because the revival is not what you think.

And rollergirls are not what you think either. They are tattoo artists, biker chicks, stay at home moms, marketing executives, nurses, yoga instructors, chefs, therapists, veterinarians, elementary school teachers-- and a children's book illustrator, just in my league alone. All very different, all equally wonderful, and very many with a recurring theme in their background that I share, and which I'm now sure is the common denominator that has drawn us to this uncommon sport.

Good and unexpected things are coming from this. All will be revealed in time. Meanwhile, please have faith in me.

Photo: me, as Polly Sonic, in the silver helmet.

rabbits

Thanks to Grace and Alvina's blogs, I found this little quiz, What Book Are You? How flattering. Take the quiz and post what book you are in my comments!

You're Watership Down!

by Richard Adams

Though many think of you as a bit young, even childish, you're
actually incredibly deep and complex. You show people the need to rethink their
assumptions, and confront them on everything from how they think to where they
build their houses. You might be one of the greatest people of all time. You'd
be recognized as such if you weren't always talking about talking rabbits.


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

losses

I get overly attached to people. When they have to move on I become disfunctionally distraught. Lately there's been a lot of people who've become dear to me, and I guess just by odds, I am losing a lot at once.

I'm feeling the loss of Elm Shakespeare, as this is the first summer in 5 years I'm not working for them. Wildfire brought me great new friends who are now spread across the east. And now, roller derby, true to its nature, has begun to take its toll on our numbers with injury and exhaustion. The news of girls leaving the league has especially gotten to me. We've struggled together, become intimately familiar with each other with close contact skating and 6 hours of practice a week plus endless meetings. And by captaining I've become intensely invested in their development. Losing any of them is losing family.

But with 45 girls and rougher times ahead, I'd better start getting used to it.

Really, I do apologize for continued grimness. I have confidence this blog will eventually get back to its original light hearted spirit. In fact I'm going to make a conscious effort from here on out to regain my sense of humor.

pruning

A new gardener often has difficulty pruning and thinning. You have to plant a lot of seeds, then pinch off some of the seedlings that sprout, so that the remaining seedlings have enough space and light to grow large and strong. You have to cut off some blooms if you want to eventually have a more bloom-filled plant. This is painful when you are a new gardener. Every seedling, every bloom is beautiful. How to choose? After you've been doing if for a long time, you've seen the benefits and it is not so uncomfortable. You get a feel for which should go and which should stay, even when they all look equally promising. It takes time to reach this level of expertise. Until then you have to do guess work and make yourself let some beautiful things go even if you can't stand it.

Rumi, caught

A BookCrossing book I released months ago in the Edgerton Park fountain, then blogged about, was just logged in as "caught" by an anonymous finder. The odds of that happening have been about as slim as balloon findings. The site says it was released 10 months ago. Have I really been blogging that long?

The mysterious finder seems to have lukewarm feelings about my choice, Chasing Rumi by Roger Housden, and suggests Landscape Painted with Tea by Milorad Pavic. That sounds marvelous. Chasing Rumi is the most personally synchronicity-filled book I've ever read. It was only a matter of time before it brought me a new clue to follow.

Another little miracle in an auspicious week.

wind, sand, waves, fire

Last Saturday evening: a seaside bungalow, a good and lovingly made dinner, a gift of a ring with a white mother of pearl heart.

A walk to the water, a hula hoop, a can of fuel hidden in a kitty litter bucket, yellow police tape, major crime scene unit, a suspicious death.

A dark abandoned beach, stars, barefeet, and fire where waves, sand and wind meet.

An audience of dear and rarely seen friends: Grace Lin, Anna Alter, and Libby Koponen. I spin and it's different, a connection happens that hasn't before. Maybe even the "affinity which links and draws together the elements of the world."

I attribute it to the fire retreat I've just had, the sea, and the love and enthusiasm of the people who watched.

34th year, so far

I really haven't stopped working or chasing wild geese, but I've lost my appetite for talking about it. So I'll just post some pictures.

Getting the next book, Chiru, into sketch form finally.

















Co-captaining a roller derby league, working towards a debut bout in December, working the press.













Gathering wood and learning new dances and fire arts on a retreat with my fire family.


















And unphotographable but unforgettable: seeing Cirque du Soleil's Corteo in NYC, body guarding Jay Jay the Jet Plane at the New England Air Museum, hearing I get to do a new puppet show for Puppetsweat.

bad art night #4

I make more things with wings and Tony draws fishes flying to heaven.

I'll post more on the Real Bad Blog a little later.

R.I.P.

Philippe, my beautiful fish, has died. He was an excellent fish. Very personable and engaging, he'd come out of his underwater bottle home to say hello to whoever walked into the kitchen. He was getting old. I got him 2 1/2 years ago, rescued from a Walmart shelf where his brothers were mostly already dying in their little tupperware cups.

It's not just the death of a $3 fish, but perhaps the end of an era that's got me feeling nostalgic. I bought him when I was newly obsessed with ice skating, street theater and sufism. I was re-learning French and preparing for a grand trip to Paris. I was in love with the sea and the sky and the places where they meet, and just starting to paint for the sake of painting again. It was an exhilerating time.

Peace to you, little buddy.

balloon

It seemed to be waiting for me outside my house this afternoon... curiouser and curiouser.

No tag attached, though.

state of affairs

I'm late on the sketches for my next book. There's a septic smell coming in the house from outside. I am bruised from premature body checking drills with rookie girls who don't know not to use elbows. I've got a weird lopsided haircut. I am dubious about my career in public speaking. My studio is becoming more and more claustrophobic. I think my fish is dying. I'm running out of the only paper I ever paint on which has gone out of production. My blog has become increasingly sparse and unhumorous.

But, my iPod is not broken afterall. The backyard garden has come back despite neglect. There is sun today. Things are pretty good.